"So beautiful," he whispers, gently curving his fingers the way the illustration showed, pressing as deep as he can go in his search for that elusive little thing he barely even knew was there, didn't even really care for. It was just anatomy.

It's so much more now, and he thinks... He thinks he should be able to feel it. The book said to be gentle at all times, no jabbing or anything, to just...gently massage it. He can do that.

...if he can just find it. Damn, blasted walnut shaped thing. How do you go about finding a walnut knuckles deep in someone's--

Hold on. Was that--? He pulls out, and then experimentally curves his fingers the same way, pushing in.